Heaven's Gate-Telling Lie

All humans have to meet the end of the day.
I wouldn’t like to think about after death. What it will happen to me?
Like in the play, I should go to a room that has one chair , a cup of water and reel of movie which is playing a my own lies during my whole life.

How many lies that I told !!
I learned that I shouldn’t tell a lie to others.
But there are some situations that I tell a lie because I want to hide from fact.
Whenever I don’t want to talk to others , I say, I am busy now.
It’s not true. I’m not busy.
Just I want to hide from that situation.
Sometimes I had been given a present that I didn’t like. I said that I really liked it. I didn’t want to break someone’s heart.
Children learn from their parents that they don’t tell a lie.
But they become adults, they know that sometimes they need to tell a lie.
More important thing is honesty to others and to myself.
If I told a lie, sometime later I could confront that situation and fact . Whether I told a lie or not it is no matter because I could say truth.
Honesty is one of the beautiful things.

In the summer , girls usually wear a brilliant colored exposed clothe such as chiffon , linen, tank tops, hot pants..
How beautiful they are!! Nice weather, wonderful sunshine, fresh air, singing birds and swaying trees.
Sometimes I have heard about accidents because some attractive woman is caught by a drunken man and then they go to court.
If we go to the mall, we can find a lot of beautiful things. They make an effort to show their attractiveness. We can’t take anything that we want. We have to pay for it. Before we decide to get something , we think about what we need.
It seems that man is much weaker to attractiveness than woman ; but if they grab anything that they want, it is illegal. It is violent. If he finds something that he wants, he needs to control how he can get it. Whether that is a something or a someone, it is not free.
If he can’t control his feelings, he needs medicine. It is reality.

Mattew Hanson ; To Be Top of the World

He is regarded by many as the first person to cross the North Pole, and arrived 45 minutes ahead of Commander Peary at what later became known as “Camp Jesup” near the northern extremity of latitude.
As an African American, Henson was regarded as a liability in the media spotlight (and may have been spurned by Peary after the trip). In 1906, three years before obtaining their goal, U.S. President Theodore Roosevelt awarded Peary the Hubbard Medal for his northern accomplishments. Henson was not awarded the same until 2000, 94 years later, in a posthumous ceremony by the National Geographic Society.
2008 Wilderness Canoe Symposium (Feb. 08 and 09, Toronto)
It took Commander Robert E.Peary eighteen years and nine separate attempts to reach the North Pole. Each attempt required a superhuman effort. ( by text)
In spite of extreme cold, snowstorm, no food, no water, frostbit, and not enough support, they didn’t give up.
What things do they endure?
Could they not give up?
Especially Mattew Hanson couldn’t expect any reward for his attempts, because he was an African. He joined as a servant and he saved Peary’s life on several occasions .
He overcame not only the tremendous power of nature but also the prejudice of people.
If I was him , I couldn’t do even attempt to go to North Pole.
Whenever I have to do something, I choose more safe and easier things. If I have to take unfamiliar things, I need a lot of encouragement and support .
Before I left my home country, I needed a lot of discussion with my family and friends. After a lot of thinking abot my life, I could make a decision. It took 1year. It was not easy to lay down my familiar life and family although it will not be a long time.
Sometime we have to face to difficult things. We can choose whether we go through the obstacles and then find an unexpected joy or give up and then find nothing.

Kissing Cutoms

In Korea when we meet each other we shake hands and say “How are you? “. Sometimes when we meet a very friendly person we could hug each other. Usually Korean people would like to express their respect by bowing. All of their children have been disciplined to respect their parents and grandparents. Whenever there are ceremony days, they meet together and they bow to the elders by bending their knees.

These days the Korean society has become more fast and personalized so more people just shake hands and just say hello. From time to time the customs of honor can be seen in only special days. Nevertheless all Korean people regard to good that they respect their elderly people and they want to continue this from generation to generation.

"Julia 'Butterfly' Hill"

When Julia Hill was 22 years old, she was nearly killed in a car accident. This life-threatening experience inspired her to set out for the Far East in a spiritual journey.

In her words, “A steering wheel slamming into my skull in a car wreck in August of 1996 steered me in a new direction and said, “ There’s got be something more.’ And I went in search of that.”

She discovered some people trying to prevent the logging of the great red wood forest in California. She had made a decision in her heart to do more than what society tells her..what her parents taught her. During this journey she got a turning point in her life.


What things are most desirable thing? How do I have to live my life? These are always philosophical subjects. I think there is no answer but we shouldn’t give up to trying to find a real value.
I was just a working girl for 10 years, and also I was a Sunday Christian. Everyday I woke up at 6am and worked until midnight, and every Sunday I automatically went to church. One day I had a religious experience, and after that I read the bible continually. My outer circumstances were not changed, but my inner most part was different than before. These days I work as I did but now I have a way to go within to God. I always needed something like music, books, movies..to fill my heart. Now I like them, but there are not necessary things for me. I can enjoy in God’s peace without music, movies, books...

The lady or the tiger

“Which came out of the opened door, the lady or the tiger”

“Perhaps it was the lady who came out.”
The man totally depended on his lover’s choice. If it was the lady, it meant that the princess gave to him the lady. Who came out? Maybe she was very beautiful and the finest lady but she was a blind or maybe she was young but she became old so fast or she got a bad nature, always angry and freting…Maybe she was beautiful but she had a lot of children ?
Anyway I think if the princess had given the lady to her lover , the lady might have been beautiful but she had a lot of problems.. because the princess was a very jealous lady.

“On the other hand, perhaps it was the tiger”
On the other hand, if the princess chose the tiger for her lover, the man would die and the princess follow the man and kill herself, because she would not be able to stand this terrible situation. She hated her father and she wanted to appeal to her father about her love. She wanted to get father’s recognition but she didn’t get his permission, so she was desperate. She had no hope. At last she choose death like Romeo and Juliet.

Personally , I think…”
If I was the princess, I would gave the beautiful lady to my lover rather than the tiger. And I would made an effort to forget him and then I would leave my father because I had no freedom to love. The palace was like a jail. Although I would lose my privilege as a princess I would have chosen my freedom.

In fact, for a long time I have worked with my father so my father is close to me rather than is other sons. He always thinks about my life more than I do. When I had to make a decision to study in the U.S.A , I had to persuade my father at first. It was needed some care and concern. It was taken almost 1month to get my father’s agreement. At last I could come to U.S.A. to study. Whenever he calls me he tells me to return as soon as possible. But I want to stay longer because I need to study more. I feel confuse because I don’t want my father to be frustrated and also I don’t want to stop studying. My thoughts and emotion are depended on my father but I want to get healthy relationship with my father to do well my own things by myself without breaking heart each other. It is not easy.

Do you ever experiment with cooking?

I never have made a food.

Bcause of I always tired for work so my mom made food for me.

Now I live alone so I have to make a food. I went grocery and bought a box of egg, milk, breast of chicken, salad,potatos….
First time I had no idea about cooking so I had to search a internet.

How I can boil a potato and eggs and what I can make with chicken breast..
I tried to boil some potatos and put on the fire and wait. I didn’t know how long time it will be taken. Sometime later I smelled some burned so I quickly went to the fire and opened the pan and then checked the potato by fork but not cook. I poured some water and waited abd burn too .I repeated puring a water and finally I could turn off the fire. Poatato’s bottom was burned almost became black brown and pan too.
Anyway I was happy even though It was really basic skill. I got a experiment with cooking.